Alarm Alarm Alarm

Day 5 of Workout. Quite honestly I don't think in the last 2 years of losing my weight that I have ever went all 5 days to do a workout. I am totally psyched that I achieved this! It wasn't ever a goal of mine to go 5 days a week it was more like I should probably do this. I am going to try my best to keep going 5 days a week and keep consistent with this. If you know me at all I am not consistent with anything. I'll say I want to do something for a blank amount of time and I'll try and I for some reason fail at it every single time. Maybe I expect to much, maybe I'm not making realistic goals, but I still think I need to commit when I say I am going to commit.


If your falling along with my blogs you know that I was suppose to get up like at 4:30am to go to my bootcamp class? Yep didn't happen and honestly it was my alarms fault not mine no excuses here at all. I woke up thinking; Wow I feel like I've been sleeping longer than I should be! I looked at the alarm clock and sure enough it was 5:45am bummer:( So yes I missed my class this morning. But good news is I have Fridays off from work so I remembered that they do the same boot camp class at 9:00am also so I went to that. So I didn't miss it. I have decided that unless I have other commitments then I will just get up on Fridays and go to that 9:00am class. On the bright side I'll get to sleep in. :)

Today wasn't a hard class at all I felt great about the workout. I probably could have pushed myself a little harder but I did my best and that's all I can do.

Thinking moment: I have found that I will always do really well during the week and during the weekends really slack off. My Goal this weekend is to keep on track with everything. I am going to commit to go for a walk on Saturday, and Sunday, just to be able keep my mind from saying "I deserve to be lazy this weekend I worked hard this week" I am going to reward myself with something better than being lazy!!

Signing off Thanks,
Desiree'

Day Four and I Want More! No More excuses!!

I honestly woke up this morning not wanting to go and work out. I got up and I got everything packed and ready for my day. I even had some time to just sit and relax. Well I found as I was by my fireplace with my cat all cuddled up by the heater I began to find myself wanting to not go work out and just hang out with the cat. (Excuse #1 Ready) I've worked really hard the last three days and I deserve a day I'll make it up on Saturday. Who am I kidding! I began to find myself lying to myself. I even had my husband convinced that is exactly what I would do.
I even at the audacity to tell me husband that I miss showering in my own shower the gym shower just weren't cutting it for me (Excuse #2). I began to think that I should be grateful for even being able to shower daily. :) I then talked myself out of the excuses and finally gave in this morning and walked out of my house at 5:50am to begin my morning workout.

Well I began to ponder about it and knew that I was kidding myself and that I would not make up the day so I just got up and went and worked out.

Destination: The Gym: When I finally got to my destination I felt great! No I felt awesome after working out! I just felt like my body is ready for all of this and I am willing to put up with just about anything.

Until the full the rest of my day started and I realized my number one enemy is..... myself. I wish I could tell you that it's somebody else, but realistically it never has been it has always been me. I get down on myself and then become very self critical about my image. Then the 2nd worst enemy that would discourage me would be STRESS.

I can't believe how much stress can add on to your life and become a discouragement then an encouragement. Ok, I know that is probably why most of us gain weight anyhow, because of stress in our world. If life could just be still at times I think their would be more success stories about people being able to lose weight. If their just was no such thing as stress, but we live in a broken world and I guess there really isn't any excuse for me. Yes I am trying to find excuses, I always have tried and it just doesn't seem to ever work out. You think I would catch on to this theory and stop making up excuses!


Valuable Lesson learned today was to not make excuses!

2nd Lesson Learned today was that if your not prepared then you won't succeed. So no procrastinating!

Well if you've been reading my blog I've been writing that I've been tired but except I have only spelled out the word tire :) So I guess that proves my point I am tired and I am going to wake up tomorrow for day 3 of Boot camp!! Tomorrow will be a better day. Did I tell you that I have Fridays off and I am going to get up at 4:30am to go to my boot camp. Go ME!!!! :)

Your weightloss journey friend,
Desiree' May

Better get A-Movin and Get Off of the Secret Station

February 24, 2010 8:12pm
Well I am sure no one is reading this and I am ok with this but boy are you missing out on some secrets secrets secrets ;) This morning was a good morning! I woke up tire of course who wouldn't be when they wake up at 4:30am. Just to let you all know I am so thankful for my awesome husband he also gets up with me and he will prepare my b-fast,lunch and pack it for me because once I go to the gym I am heading to work right after. Anywoo to get off that tangent. I woke up and did the 2nd day of boot camp it actually was hard but it felt so good due to how sore I was I didn't think I would be able to do anything, but I did and I did it with strength and perseverance. I did not weigh myself today I am only going to try to weigh myself weekly. I think it is healthy to obsess over it either so I am only going to do a weekly weigh in.

So I do have to admit today, I did not give it my hardest but I was sore :)

Guilty thought today: (Driving home from work and I had some left over valentine candy from my husband and I totally woofed it down. I then became very guilty about this)

Lesson I learned: Do not ever feel guilty about making a mistake just get back on the wagon and work harder that next second, minute, hour, day.... Positive thinking is much better!!

So I am going to sign off! I will be getting up around 5:00am to go to a 30minute cardio this time I am going to try to give it my all!!

Thanks to whoever is interested in reading my posts!!

Needless to say I am sore inside and outside!

Tuesday Night February 23, 2009 7:31pm (Mountain Time)

Needless to say today I am very sore. I went to the boot camp class yesterday morning and I am very very very sore. Considering the way I'm used to losing weight before was just by running! Well my coach, trainer, (lady that I paid lots of money to:) decided that she is going to have me do lunges lunges lunges and running running running of course. Granted I did sign up for this right;) The running wasn't so bad but those damn lunges make me hurt. I kid you not in a number since I probably had to do at least 100 if not more by the end of the hour. She of course weighed me and said that for an incentive whoever loses the most weight in this six week course will get a free six week course. I kind of chuckled at the thought but yet was very thankful at the same time to know. So you probably want to hear how much I weighed in at. Yes I am a woman and I am willing to share with the world what I currently weigh. Ready.... Ready... (197.6lbs) (Shit I better get back on track soon or I am going to become that big baboon very soon!)

Today I went and did 20minute cardio I was hurting from the morning previous from today. My Coach did say do not skip the in between days of not having boot camp because it will help my body not to stay as sore and to get in to shape quickly. Well I am still very very sore it hurts to squat and go to the potty. (For all of you that do not know me I am a preschool teacher.) I have to do a lot of squatting down to look at my kiddos can I say ouch!!! I felt like an 98 year old woman squatting down because it hurt so much. So I weighed in today at 196.2 So I have lost a pound YEA!!!!!! Well 49 more pounds to go!! I'm signing off tonight as I am tire and have to wake early in the morning to begin the 2nd day of Boot camp!

P.S. I am very excited that I am hurting I know this is good for my body and that I need to keep strong and not get intimidated by this all!
Thanks everyone,
Desiree' May :)

First Blog Ever about my weightloss journey

Ok so it is 4:46am and I committed yesterday as my husband and I were driving it dawned on me that I should do a blog about my weight loss. I watched Julie and Julia and was inspired by this and thought maybe if I was held accountable from "the whole world" about losing the rest of my weight that I would become determined. I will be leaving my house at approximately 5:00am to be able to go to the gym that I've been a member of for 2 months now and have had little to none determination when I am there. So I signed up for a class called bootcamp for 6 weeks 3 days a week M,W,F, at 5:30am. Can you say Crazy or Determined. I hope someday I will be able to say determined but for now I am going to call this mission Crazy!!!

In the past 2 years I have lost total of 126 lbs.
Most ever weighed 289
Most ever lost since the weight lost was 126lbs
I weighed at my lowest was 163 than I gained 31lbs since that weight loss and now I weigh a big whopping 194 (Disgusting)
So as I blog this is my goal is to lose 50lbs and be at a weight of 144lbs! I know I can do this I just have to be determine. I am giving myself until December 1, 2010 to do this!!

I will blog more later as for now I have to get going to that gym and burn burn burn!!!