Ok so today is Tuesday and to be quite honest today I had no motivation at all to go work out. I did notice though that I was more aware of how much I was eating if I wasn't going to work out. Sometimes I swear there is like two of me battling over me. There me 1 who wants to do whatever it takes to lose all of my weight and be able to be healthy again and then there is me 2 who looks at everyone and wishes she could be like them because it would be easier. If I just was like them I wouldn't be wear I am at, or if I was just born in a diff Ara. GIVE ME A BREAK ME 2. Yes I know it's crazy to think this, but realistically this is what I am sure most woman or young gals go through every freakin day to be accepted by society. Well to heck with society. Why do be believe so much of this when really I should believe in myself and love me. I put way to much focus on what I should look like. If I would focus that much on something else I am sure the world would be a much happier place if I didn't think about me or we didn't think so much about what "they" think!! OK OK enough of my tangent! I am getting up tomorrow morning for some boot camp. I am going to work work work and sacrifice an hour to really burn some calories and know that I am working and doing my best to perfect what my body needs to be healthy again.
My focus tomorrow: To not say anything or think anything negative about myself. This challenge is going to be hard but I know it is possible because I am taking back what society has taught me to believe to being what I know I can be!!! :)
Signing off
50 more lbs to go!!
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